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The Language Is Leaving Me In Silence

Written By: Justine - May• 08•15


After the Eurythmics last night, today was an Annie Lennox playlist day

“No More I Love Yous” was released on the Medusa Album.  It struck quite a cord with me then and it still does.

It seems so easy to remember the drama and passion of first loves, college loves, and indeed any love more than ten years ago.  The song describes it so succinctly:

“I used to be a lunatic from the gracious days
I used to feel woebegone and so restless nights
My aching heart would bleed for you to see
Oh, but now
I don’t find myself bouncing home
Whistling buttonhole tunes to make me cry”

. . .

“The lover speaks about the monsters
I used to have demons in my room at night
Desire, despair, desire
So many monsters.

A Jaded feeling perhaps?  Age and maturity setting in?  Or perhaps just a tinge of sour grapes?  Is it better to have loved and lost?  Is it better to know what your missing?  Does it make you miss it any less?

What becomes of matters of the heart when you are no longer an ingenue?  Where does the heart look?

Do you laugh at the word ‘Cougar’?  Do you pretend it doesn’t hurt?

Or do you pretend that you can do without?  Perhaps for the rest of your life?

There moments when the whirl of life and the spin of the world make you forget your heart, your dreams, and your loneliness.  Moments when you don’t feel like you’d crawl over broken glass to be loved.

But the demon always returns.  The longing endures all attempts to extinguish it.

Is there no choice but to put on a brave face and finish the buttonhole tune so you don’t cry?

“No more I love you’s
The language is leaving me
No more I love you’s
The language is leaving me in silence
No more I love you’s
Changes are shifting
Outside the words.”


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